Trying really hard on everything just pretty much makes you good at nothing.
When people questioned me, what do you do, what’s your ambition, your future…
I always have an answer in mind, but the answer’s never consistent.
I’ve spent so much time achieving what I want and ended up moving on to a different goal and losing what I’ve learnt & achieved.
I always sat down in a quiet room and start questioning myself..
What is my ambition?
What could make me stay consistent?
What do I want to do with my life?
Every time this happens, I paused then thought for a bit. These words starts running around my head. Pool? Forensic Science? Computer Technician? Graphics Designer? Webmaster? And each time these words pop out, my tear ducts starts itching a bit. Cause I once had the chance to be good at any one of em, but I passed on just cause I got attracted to something new.
Due to all that, I could barely get serious with anything I do now. Because I’m afraid, afraid that sooner or later I’ll then again move on like before.
So I slack, I procrastinate in every task or goals meant to be done/achieved.
I just pray and hope that I’d find my way out through this dark hole soon.
Cause I’m tired of skipping pages..