On the day I got my other 2 teeth removed, I mentioned on the same night, I went off to the theater with my sister and her bf to watch Iron Man 2. The movie was fine, didn’t think it was anywhere near better than Iron Man 1 though, but my sister loves it as she loves Robert Downey Jr. Seriously speaking, the climax of the story was awful, in the beginning of the story, they make it seem as if Ivan Vanko(aka Mickey Rourke) vengeance and when he first showed up on the race track, he nearly destroyed Iron Man, and as he lost the battle, he started working with Agent Coulson which could provide him more than he can do for himselves, he planned so much out so long, while Iron Man was wasting time. Though Iron Man later found a cure for his battery life thingy(whatever fuck you’d like to call that), but still with all the planning from Ivan Vanko, he’d just died so easily and I wasn’t impressed at all at how the plot turned around to the good side. So yeah, bad climax, I’m no longer excited for Iron Man 3 to be released.

The next day, we went back to Taoyuan back to grandma’s house. Didn’t do much all, so yeah not much to say. Slept then the next morning I woke up, we started watching movies as my aunt brought some DVDs over. Started off with Legion, not bad, however the ending isn’t unique at all, but still its not that bad. Then carried on with a HongKong Film, not sure what’s it called, wasn’t concentrating that time, I was spending more time chatting than watching the film, its obviously a love story, but I don’t know what actually the story was about as I wasn’t watching, ending was touching though, hahaha.. As soon as thats over, we all head back to hollywood for some thriller films, “Shutter Island”, we’d thought its a thriller movie, but turns out, the movie sucks bad, I can’t understand the whole point of the story, no climax, the main actor was going nuts, watching him go nuts I’d say the watchers’ are all going nuts too. Some of my cousins even left as they’d not understand the story at all XD. And the ending was like WTF, I even asked one of my cousin,”WTF, its over? (When I saw the credits)”. Then carried on with another comedy film, no idea what that movie was called too, watched some parts, and those parts were pretty hilarious, so yeah.. Rofl, I successfully completed watching 3 films, three of them turns out to have bad ending, one of the three is not even a movie(Shutter Island).

Then, after watching, had dinner and cake for mother’s day, went to the bus stop, took the bus back to Taipei, and here I am now. So yeah, pretty random week for me. But I’m glad that I at least enjoyed spending time with my cousins and family watching movie(LOL!)..

Just as I got returned to Taipei, just as I thought everything’s gonna be more easier and thought the restless and painful (well not painful, I was just too drained from travelling) weekend is about to end, as soon as I reached back home at 12pm, I got a phone call reminder from the dental department, saying I have an appointment with me dentist at 3pm. Got back start unpacking and all, got to the dentist, got another 2 premolars removed, thats 4 teeth gone(gonna show a pic later, as I’m too tired now its 6.32AM and I have another blog post to make). And my sister’s get back on the same night, though it was aching like hell, I’d still have to keep her comfy as she’s staying over at my house, later her bf came along too, thought it’d be better to distract from me thinking about the remorseful aching, I’d go watched iron man 2 with them. And yes, I totally forgotten about my teeth removed, was too focused on the TV that I start eating popcorns that causes more pain for my teeth, not only that, Iron Man 2 have a bad plot(will talk about it in the next post). Basically, what a disastrous weekend, and the last day turned out dreadfully. Glad that its over now. *BIG SIGH*

I don’t think I should be making this post, but yeah I’m making it. *Confused* Well, I seriously do not know where my life stands right now, and where or what my aim or target is anymore.

Used to had an ambition, forensic science, was astounded when I was to be told, after I graduated Grade 11 – November 2008, I would be heading to Canada for further studies. Disastrously, none of them worked out, been waiting pessimistically as I later found out my dad couldn’t financially afford my studies in Canada which he could’ve basically told me earlier.

Meanwhile, in Taiwan on May 2009, my mom fall sick with diabetes. After knowing that I’d not be able to go to Canada to pursue with my studies, I’d left Sep 2009 to see & take care of my mom and actually have had 90% of my enthusiasm in studies surrendered. As my mom gets better, I got into the Pool team here, started training, getting work, etc. And actually, I was pretty motivated & passionate in my pool career and I genuinely thought of working all the way with it and just leave it as, “I’d never had the luck to study”.

While I’m all over pool in December 2009 and improving so much due to so much dedication, heart and effort put into training. My dad told me, he can let me go to Canada and can sort out the money and everything(What is this? Move me to another direction(hopeless), then now want to shove me back with his discretion?). I told him that I’d not put anything at stake for his unstable ability to do things.

So I kept on training and training, and thought I’d keep training and all, however on the same time, my coach and some pool friends advised me to not give up my education just because of pool. So in case if I do not 100% succeed in it, I can work on what I’ve gain from education. On Feb 2010 I then decided to work on getting into a school in Taiwan instead, while trying to get a student visa(as they do not accept PR visa). Which is very burdensome as I own a Brunei Passport(Its not even a Passport, only main citizen(yellow IC) gets national passport). And while working on it and all, I have a lot of free time in between but I didn’t decide to go back to training or work, because I’d thought if I get back to training, if the immigration or the university needs some documents(I can tell you its a lot of hassle), I’d need to take a few days off to sort things out. And I’m afraid the coach’d think,”Who do you think you are? You come when you want, and don’t come when you don’t want. Do you think its your house?”

So just because being afraid of my coach thinking that way, I’ve neglected pool for 4 months, no work(I’m sure the employers mad too). And my coach have no idea that I’m already in Taiwan and might think I’m gone for good. Now I’m back into the webmaster world like before(while waiting for Canada), wasting time on the PC and shits and revenue is freaking low. And I do not know when’s right to get back to Pool, and I cannot ensure if the university will accept me, as I am not being able to read chinese, which I’d need to take extra tuition classes for catching up. And I also do not know, if the Mandarin Tuition School will accept me either. And if everything starts, will I be able to work on Pool later? Or if nothing works, isn’t it all the time and money spent working on it gone and will my coach or employer want me back? And if all mentioned works, will I be able to manage my sites that I’m working on now?

Too much questions that needs to be answered, I’m confused and felt everything in my life are filled with flusters. :S

However, I’m writing this post just because I’d thought some should know what I’m going through and I didn’t blame my parents for fucking all things up as I myself chose to put my life on their hands before which I wouldn’t do so anymore, cause its better to make the wrong decisions by yourself, then to believe someone and letting them make the wrong decision for you.

Yesterday I went to the dentist to get 2 premolars removed on the left side of my teeth(upper and lower). And as soon as its removed, even with a lot of anaesthetic injected into my gums, and feeling the numbness as if my whole left face was paralyzed, it still hurts. =’( But yeah, after taking several painkillers and today I woke up feeling better, the wound doesn’t hurt that much anymore, however I felt, I think its the molars, well as molars are inside, so I think the left innermost molar which hasn’t been able to grow out, now with teeth removed and more space available is trying to force itself out, however as shown in the x-rays, the two innermost molars in the lower part of my tooth seems to have gotten displaced and not growing upwards and instead growing towards the molars beside it. This may be wrong, but its how I deduced from this pain.

And oh yeah, as I said no pictures on my previous post right? Its okay, I’m gonna show you a pic of me after a few hours off the dentist.

Hysterical ain’t it?

Roughly two weeks back, I went to the dentist to get my teeth checked and the dentist requested me to go to another dentistry department for dental X-Rays. I got the X-Rays done about a week ago, and got back to the dentist the next day after the X-Ray day, and the made an appointment along with the dentist which is basically tomorrow, and yes indeed I’m kinda anxious, cause he’s not gonna attach the braces in my mouth tomorrow. However, he’d mentioned that there isn’t much space for my teeth to be adjusted to its proper position. As one of my central incisors was kinda partly above the other, so he’d need to remove two premolars on the top(one on the left, the other on the right), and the same thing goes with the bottom of me teeth(2 premolars to be removed). Nevertheless, tomorrow’s appointment was just for the removal of two premolars on the top. So yeah. I’m pretty anxious u know. =D So let’s see what happens, and NO! no pictures of me without 2 teeth. =P Till here for now! Peace out!