我答應自己期中考后要拼命的念書，雖然前幾個禮拜我有很努力的念，可是這兩個禮拜我都在玩，一點時間都沒有放在課本上。超後悔的！不管了，從今天開始我一定不會給自己一點放鬆的時間。希望這一次會達道自己理想的成績。

Right before my admission to 僑大 I had all the motivational spirit talks all day long saying no matter how hard it would be I’ll still fight till the end, however as the time goes by, I never actually seen myself putting at least a slightest effort in any of my subjects without being said, I’m the underdog here. I guess, the only way I could reached at least close to my expectations is to strive like a mad man and do not socialize with others. Cause after today’s released of results I was surprised by not being among the lasts. But somehow tingle my nerves and brain some bit that made me feel like I can do way better, even though most say I can’t.

有時候我種覺得雖然我已經算很努力了，可是當我看到別人和我的分數差別我覺得我因該亘努力。希望我會把我玩的時間放在課本上。

There are times in life where you’d not which choice is right and which is wrong. I’ve came across a problem lately, as most may know, most students in 僑大 are practically weak in English except for those who actually had all their textbooks in english since elementary school till high school. With that being said, I didn’t try to emphasize that my English is good nor do I mean it in any similar ways.
Ok, the main point is, there’s someone(not gonna say who) who always bugs the fuck outta me so I’d teach him english and telling him the basic knowledge of preposition, I’m fine with teaching him thou I know it’s gonna take a while to get him to understand since I know his English ability is more of a kindergarten level than an intermediate(which we’re learning now). However, due to my experience I’d told him I highly suggest him to memorize from the book, cause even me knowing the use of prepositions very well, I haven’t had my first 100% yet. Cause the teacher strictly marks accordingly from the book, eventful your answer is applicable to the question, she’d still mark it wrong. Then this guy responded me with a ‘it’s okay then, I understand’ and showed a disappointing face. Due to this shit he stopped talking to me. How immature heh? You see, if i taught him the way he wanted, and he didnt get the questions right, he’d blame me, if i tell whats better, he’d said im selfish. You just have no fucking idea of what to do, when you come across shits like that, right? Aight nuff’ said! I’m tired, it’s almost 2, got a class in the morning, I’m out!

Weeks after weeks, I kept bringing books from my dormitory to my crib, telling myself I’m going to study when I reached Taipei. But weeks after weeks, I’ve been disappointing myself. I’d either hang out with my Taipei friends, or I’d tell myself I’m not going out as I’d need to study at home and also I’d prolly be able to save some money for not going out. But with all the entertainment products that I have at home, nothing is gonna keep me from warming my study chair and keep studying. So I’d conclude, the best way to make myself study is to stay at school, so most “prolly”(cant say definitely) next week, I’ll be staying at my dorm.